In the end

        When you wish for sth alot, u have to sacrifice sth in order to achieve that goal. sometimes the ting u sacrifice may mean alot to u.

my relationship is yet in rocks again, on the verge of breaking up. Just waiting for green light from him. Although he said that he doesnt noe, but I noe that deep down, despite that both of us do not want to break up, since it is our first love, but I know that too many differences, conflicts would drawn us apart.

I have a fine day in the aftnoon, in the lab, although tedious, but I am glad that I obtained a pretty decent results. And he then called me to say that he would wait for me at Tampines. And he did. After that, he asked me to walk home from tampinesMRT station at 8p.m and I didnt have lunch. So, of course, I wasnt happy over it, I was so tired and hungry, but yet he asked me to walk.
This isnt the first time we having this kind of fights. We have alot. He is upset that I cared too much about everyone around me, care too much about studies, care too much of looks, do not exercise, do not sleep early etc etc. The list is so long that I find that he dislike me in everything. And he told me before " We are past the honeymoon stage, unlike everyone else". It is true but I wish that I still have the happy lovely feeling of knowing about his life and at the same time, obtain what I have to do in my own life. I guess, it can never be balanced since I am struggling hard balancing my own life.

I know people says that I am a huge complainer, but I am really trying very hard to take life slowly. But, it is hard when everyting just drives u another way, that it is hard to smile and say "I am fine, thank you." No, it is a lie to say that.

And I cried today. But I know, tears means nth. I'll strong and stand up to myself.
Be strong XJ. Everything will be fine.

Comments

[K3iTh]

long time since i viewed ur blog and i see this..:|

oh well..c'est la vie..in ur case..So ist das Leben..:)

cheer up k.

[Christina]

:) thanks